Today is the day

Good morning.
Today is the first day of my diet. I feel pretty numb if that makes sense? Like maybe I am just mentally blocking out the look and taste of food? Even my eggs with tomato just tasted blah. But I ate them. I am having decaf coffee with non fat milk and sweet n low. It's not my creamer I love..but it does hit the spot.

My mom has a ton of errands to run so I think maybe I will go there and go with her to keep busy. Cody's cough is back...I'm not surprised. Everyone in my family has gotten sick a few times this winter and for some reason it keeps returning. I got a huge can of Lysol spray and sprayed the shit out of the house last night. Door handles and all! Hopefully that helps. No plans tonight. We will be home.

Everyone stay safe. I will post my daily menu later.

B: 2 eggs with tomato
L: Roasted chicken ceasar and tomatos
D: grilled chicken over salad with tomato and mushrooms
80oz water
2 cups coffee with non fat and sweet n low

The start of the race

Welp...tomorrow is day #1. Ewww sounds so far away from where I want to be. It's going to take me about 8 months to get where I want to be. Sucks. I didnt gain the weight overnight though right? I chose to start New Years Eve since there will be no parties or tempting food around me. We have no immediate plans on doing anything so that will be good. I went to the grocery and got all my food. My chicken is marinating in fat free italian and I have eggs and veggies.

Sunday we went to Prescott to visit our friends. Its so relaxing there. They have property so Cody can run with the other boys. They have a blast jumping around on the trampoline and playing. Good thing those boys have energy just like cody's.

Well Im off to see if I can find a Vanity Fair bra on sale online. LOL

Monday already?

Bleh. Monday's just really are not my favorite. I have so much to do too. I have to make my grocery list, clean my house, and watch the two boys terrorize each other all day. Should be fun. I am however going to lay down with them today for nap, since I didn't fall asleep until 2am, and woke at 5 for no apparant reason at all. Guess it's back to nighttime pills to help me.
The big diet starts tomorrow. I am not happy about it, but I will do it. I WILL follow through, I WILL lose the weight.
I have been having dreams alot lately of what I might look like with my weight gone. I must say if I look this way in real life I will be thrilled. I have dreams of people coming up to me telling me how great I look, or how proud they are of me...you can't even know how wonderful that feeling is. I hope to feel it for real soon.

Well hubbs off to work, and Pey should be here any sec....wish me luck!

Country girl

I hope everyone had a great Christmas! Cody got some great stuff from Santa. He came in screaming Christmas morning waking us up. :0)

My parents gave us some gift cards, which are always nice. Kris got me some really cute ariat western boots. Maybe I will now find my inner country girl. LOL.

Today I cant help but want to start taking my decorations down, but I am going to do that Sunday. Today Cody and I are going to return a couple things, then just relax.
My diet starts Monday so I will need to do all my grocery shopping also.

Cody still has a cough..but otherwise is much better. Maybe getting some cold air in him today will be good.

Hope everyone is doing well. Not much else going on. Here are a couple pictures from yesterday.

So undecisive

Well I have decided I want to go back dark on my hair. I know you are all like no dont do it. I miss it. I also miss it long. I hope it grows back out fast. Maybe my prenatals will help. I might have my hair lady weave some cool red or dark through it next time. We will see. I change my mind alot on my hair.

So I watched all the Hills episodes on tv this morning so I am all caught up. Is it weird that Justin is actually kinda hot? In that mysterious weird way? Anyway as I was watching I was noticing all the girls had there nails black..so I tried it and actually love the look. I am fair so it looks neat. Maybe its the start of my vampire look! Kidding!

Tonight I want to get some cleaning done so tomorrow I can bake and get the house ready for Christmas. I just need to tidy and wipe down the bathrooms and do the floors. I also need to take my spotshot and get some spots i see on the carpet.

Thanks to Em I have some yummy Rocky Road Brownies to make! I also need to make Santa's cookies!

I wanted to post my weight goals. Its early but heck who cares right? I wont put my start weight cause I dont want to scare anyone so I will just put how much I want to lose by what date.

Oh and if anyone is in need of a new curling iron I just got the Bed head pink one. It get super hot super fast and works great! I had a gift card and used it on that since my handle was breaking on my 15yr old one! ha ha

Now I know the weight might not fall off exact, but the diet I do does work and fast. I am starting with Kimkins then going to South Beach. Either way it will be good fats, low carbs, and healthy.

JAMIE'S WEIGHTLOSS GOALS
25 lbs by feb 1st
35 lbs by march 1st
50 lbs by april 1st
65 lbs by may 1st
75 lbs by june 1st
90 lbs by August 1st

Finding the Christmas Spirit

I am having trouble this year finding my Christmas cheer. I have many things to be grateful for. I know what the true meaning of Christmas is. Yet, I find myself withdrawn and wanting to just be in my own world. I am dreading the family dinner Thursday. I know some comments will be made whether it be about our place, how its kept, my weight, or the way I do things. Maybe it's me looking too far into it, but I am dreading it regardless.
Kris got a neat train to go around the Christmas tree tonight. We are going to let Cody open it Christmas Eve so him and daddy can set it up.
Tomorrow I have the baby. I hope he doesnt get sick too. I warned his mom, but she is bringing him so I tried. Unfortunately if he gets sick I wont take him I dont want this crap getting passed back and forth.
I need to get all of my cleaning done tomorrow so I am not rushing on Wednesday.
Took Cody to the Dr. this morning. They said his hives are from the virus. He is only getting them at night, which she said was because he is warmer at night and hives love hot places. Kris found some Zyrtec for hives at walgreens so we gave him that..we shall see. The Dr also said we should be done with the steroid, and to just use the Antihistamine as needed for the hives.
Kris worked late tonight so I wasnt able to make study. Actually its 10pm and he just got home. Poor man. Works all day then comes home just to sleep and do it again.

I have my weightloss goals ready and will post those after Christmas. I hope to get some encouragement here and to make this my place to vent. Im sure I will have struggles everyday. I will be eating lots of protein and veggies. Fun times. Blah.

Well off to dreamland if I can find it tonight. Got to be up early.

xoxoxo

Croup

Lil man came in our room at 2am wheezing and had the good old barking cough. He never wheezes so we worried naturally and took him to Goodnight Pediactrics. This place is wonderful for kids and is open 5pm-5am. They gave him a breathing treatment and some steroids. He seems better today. I kept him home of course, and will tomorrow too. Sucks cause tomorrow is his last day of school before Christmas break. We will have to find a way up to school to drop of his teachers gift.

Hubbs worked in the garage all day and lil man and I just relaxed. My friend Stephanie and her daughter stopped by to give Cody his xmas gift. She loved the house and decorating we had done. :0) I need to make my way to my moms tomorrow to get all my gifts for Cody and get those wrapped.

Tomorrow will be cleaning the house day. I want to get the floors, bathrooms and vaccuming done. I find I vaccum pretty much every other day having the carpet.

I need to go get lil man into the bath and some medicine. Hope everyone is doing well.

xoxoxo

Twilight again?

I saw Twilight again Wednesday night. By myself! It was actually nice. No interupptions or someone talking. It was even better than the first time. I have already read the book twice but might have to do it again. LOL.
My sister said she saw a Edward poster she wants to get me! I would totally frame it and keep it. Or even just a Twilight poster. Im obsessed...you can say it.

My mom, aunt, and sister all came by today to work on my master bedroom. My mom got us a really pretty blue\greenish comforter with pillows. She got rugs and towels for the bathroom too. We are still tweaking a few things and have a few things to get, but all in all it looks fantastic. The house is pretty much done!

We are all done with Christmas. Got everyone bought for..which wasnt much, and I just need to wrap. I got started already but have quite a bit to do. I need to get all of Cody's gifts from my moms too from Santa and us. :o)
Speaking of Santa...apparently Cody and his fellow classmates sent letters to Santa a couple weeks ago. Cody recieved a letter in the mail today from the North Pole. Santa wrote him a wonderful letter, and included a green house key on a ribbon to put under the door Christmas Eve so he can get in to leave all the presents! Cody was in awe...I cant wait for Christmas Morning. I love giving. I love..love..love it.

I have already been making New Years resolutions. Yes, I know why now? Well I try to be a planner. Of course my resolution this year is to lose weight again. Isnt that always the resolution???? Anyhow I have my goals written out and will be at goal weight of 170 by my 30th birthday! I will also get a tattoo for my 30th.

Anyway...it's chill time here...we are watching Christmas shows on tv and just relaxing. Hope everyone is great.

xoxoxo

EDIT

*******Husband is snoring on couch*******

WOW is all I can say...

Stephanie threw the BEST Christmas Party ever tonight! The food, the cookies, her awesome house, and SANTA!!! Yep...Santa rang the bell and the kids freaked! He brought a bag full of toys too! It was a wonderful time, the best party by far we have been to. Thanks Steph!

TGIF

Happy Friday! Hope everyone is doing good.

The crud is still around. I napped with the kids today and did pretty much nothing. I also found out that the let the boys figure it out method somewhat works. LOL.

Kris is on the way home with pizza for dinner. I am not in the mood to cook at all. So I'm happy about that. We are going to some old friends house tonight. We only see them a few times a year so it will be fun. Kris is not on call and wanting a beer also.

Starting Monday I will be blogging my diet. My food, feelings, and calorie intake etc. I want to keep track of it here. Hopefully anyone that reads this blog...which is only like 4 people will encourage me. I am cutting down on carbs and counting calories. I will also pick up the gym again this week. I miss it. I will only be able to continue for another month but after that I am going to walk/jog with some girls that live close. :0)

Tomorrow we have lil man's Hockey lesson, then a Coyotes game tomorrow night. I want to get our Christmas photos done too. We are expecting a storm so I hope to get them done tomorrow fast! Sunday is a Christmas Party for Cody at my friends house. It will be so fun. Santa will be there too!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

The Crud

So this cold crud that everyone has...I got it. Hubbs has been sick with Bronchitis for almost 2 weeks. He goes back to the Dr. today for more medicine. The first round of antibiotics didn't work. I have stuffy nose..yet runny...sinus headache and pressure, watery eyes, sneezing...typical allergy\cold stuff. Most people that have it say it will hang around for a couple weeks. Yay! Thankfully Cody has only had a runny nose that seems to be gone now. I did the Vicks Vapor Rub on the bottom of his feet last week..wonder if that really does work? Or him being up north where the cool air was might have helped too.

I have the baby today. He is down for a morning nap...which he hasn't been taking in a couple months now..but he was trying to climb in the crib so I didn't deny him. I need to get him up here in a minute or else he won't take nap. Today is going to be nap day for all of us here.

Tonight Cody sings at his school. Hubbs, in-laws, and myself will watch. Let's hope he sings and doesn't chat with his neighbor. He is too much like me!!!

Well I'm off to do something productive...like sit in front of the tv! LOL

Just stuff....

Thanksgiving dinner was a hit. I think my mom made more of the celebration when she realized she was wearing a nursing bra! She said it was so comfortable so she was going to keep it. I haven't laughed that hard in a while. She did give me a hard time about having to quit the gym. Those are her worries...she is a mother and I do understand from the health point of it..but that is where I stop understanding.

This week is crazy. Tonight we are going to Star of Wonder at Phoenix First for the show. Tomorrow I have a Dr. appt and a hair appt. Thursday night Cody sings at school...Saturday is hockey lesson then a hockey game at night with the in-laws. Sunday is the Christmas Party at my friend's house. Santa is coming and all!!!

After Peyton leaves this morning Cody and I are going to go to my sisters to see Bailey. Then come home so I can lay him down and get some things done around here.

Away time

We are enjoying some time up in Prescott. It's much cooler here and feels more like Christmas up here. Everyone says hi, and Merry Christmas...how awesome right? How come people are not always like this??? Anyhow, we are enjoying it. Diane and Jim are old neighbors are having us at their home tonight. It's comfy, fun, relaxing, and just the away time we needed.

Today went to downtown Prescott to watch the parade. Cody saw Santa...of course was in awe. :0) We will head home tomorrow around noon, since we have our Thanksgiving dinner at my sisters' house at 3pm. We never got dinner since Bailey came. :0)

I have decided to put off a baby. I really...TRULY...want to lose weight. I want to do it for ME. I want to look good, feel good...and gosh darn it someone to hit on me!!!LOL....KIDDING!!!! Kris said whatever I want. Heck I'm only 29. I have plenty of time. So maybe this time next year or 2010 we will try. Now this decision could change...but I just have really been thinking about it. I am off birthcontrol now...but not because we are trying...because I feel 100% better without the hormones. I feel like a new person. Who knew? I have a OB consult for an IUD on Wednesday so we will see how that goes.

I need to get on the ball with Christmas photos. I need to get greeting cards sent out also. That is my goal this week. :0) I think a photo in front of the Christmas tree might do the trick. I will see if Amy will come over and take one of the family after we get the tree done Monday night. I need to do her photos too!

Ok...we are off to bed....hope everyone is having a great weekend!!!

Tuesday

Happy Tuesday!

This house has been nuts! I got some more boxes unpacked and stuff put away. Sometimes I just sit and stare at it all....LOL. Amy came by today with Haylee, it was nice to have our first visitors. :0) Kelly brought by a beautiful rose bush as a housewarming gift too! Now lets just hope I don't kill it.

So between moving and my niece being born not much else is new. My niece is gorgeous. Anytime I can sneak over I do...and of course she loves her Auntie (everyone says it's my big boobs) but I don't care...she loves me. She snuggles right in on me and crashes. :0)

Kris is home for some of the week, if not all of it. He has Bronchitis, and possibly pneumonia too, we haven't gotten the xray results back yet. So we shall see. He is doing stuff around the house regardless...even after I yell at him to go rest! I'm almost positive I have Bronchitis too, but I dont feel that bad. Not to where I need to lay in bed all day or anything.

The house is coming along. I burn candles all over. It's going to take a while to get it smelling like the Pillon house. LOL. I burn tons of candles of course too. As soon as I get the place done I will post some pics. Meanwhile enjoy my beautiful niece!!!