Finding the Christmas Spirit

I am having trouble this year finding my Christmas cheer. I have many things to be grateful for. I know what the true meaning of Christmas is. Yet, I find myself withdrawn and wanting to just be in my own world. I am dreading the family dinner Thursday. I know some comments will be made whether it be about our place, how its kept, my weight, or the way I do things. Maybe it's me looking too far into it, but I am dreading it regardless.
Kris got a neat train to go around the Christmas tree tonight. We are going to let Cody open it Christmas Eve so him and daddy can set it up.
Tomorrow I have the baby. I hope he doesnt get sick too. I warned his mom, but she is bringing him so I tried. Unfortunately if he gets sick I wont take him I dont want this crap getting passed back and forth.
I need to get all of my cleaning done tomorrow so I am not rushing on Wednesday.
Took Cody to the Dr. this morning. They said his hives are from the virus. He is only getting them at night, which she said was because he is warmer at night and hives love hot places. Kris found some Zyrtec for hives at walgreens so we gave him that..we shall see. The Dr also said we should be done with the steroid, and to just use the Antihistamine as needed for the hives.
Kris worked late tonight so I wasnt able to make study. Actually its 10pm and he just got home. Poor man. Works all day then comes home just to sleep and do it again.

I have my weightloss goals ready and will post those after Christmas. I hope to get some encouragement here and to make this my place to vent. Im sure I will have struggles everyday. I will be eating lots of protein and veggies. Fun times. Blah.

Well off to dreamland if I can find it tonight. Got to be up early.

xoxoxo